Sorry I’ve been MIA for a few days…Been a little busy! I’m trying to knock this final class out (Oh my goodness I am so ready for it to be OVER!). I am so positively thrilled that it’s almost here.
Speaking of which…
My new year’s resolution is to have more fun. I’ve been all work and hardly ANY play for a minute. So this year, if I have some extra cash, I’m going to take a vacation! Moreover, I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t want to get into another serious relationship just yet. However, I do want to meet cool dudes and have casual affairs. There I said it! I have a basket full of colorful condoms and lubrication and I fully intend to use them up (lol).
After having a one night stand a several days ago I felt reinvigorated, rejuvenated, and inspired. In addition, it gave me cause to pause and ponder about my life. Since I was sixteen I’ve been in some phase of a committed relationship (either entering or leaving). I never really got to explore my sexuality without having to work at maintaining a monogamous relationship. The last one just left me so confused and discombobulated. Now, I would like to have casual sex just for sex’s sake. Granted, I don’t wanna knock down every guy in sight but instead of a another boyfriend I would, for the time being, like a homeboy(s) with privileges!
I used to be afraid to even consider such a notion because I didn’t wanted to labeled as a ho (lol). Now, I don’t think you have to be a ho to be secure, free, and sexually expressive. It’s just about being a young healthy person and not wanting to just sit up and wait for “THE ONE” all the time. Look, damn that. This is just how I feel right now! And I shan’t apologize! (lol).
I’ve been Carrie and Charlotte for quite sometime…Right now I wanna be Samantha (okay, that is extreme. A lesser version of Samantha. That woman is a human petris dish)!
Please don’t think this is going to become some debaucherous porn blog now! NO…WAY. I am a proper English gentlemen afterall! =0)